Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Starting over....AGAIN!!

Here I go again!! Buckeling down, getting serious, making myself a priority as well as my health!!

Oh dear -  been here before haven't I?

That's okay though...that's the glory of life - you truly get to start each day new and build upon the past experiences and knowledge. My life it seems has been consumed with food, knowledge around losing weight, health and fitness probably since I was about 12 years old. I guess I'm a self-proclaimed junkie when it comes to this information! I've realized that along the way I've learned a great deal and found a spark within me to share what I'm learning with others and improve my own life. (If only I could keep my mouth shut long enough to not shove food in it - but that's another topic entirely).

So here I go again! I turned 37 a few weeks ago - not bad - I think I look pretty good for 37 (although not sure that I should expect to necessarily look BAD at this age) but I know at the root of it all I need to make some serious changes! This is nothing new, it's not like I've had this great epiphany - I've known for a long time that I needed to do this it's just now some health concerns are telling me I need to pick up the pace and get myself figured out sooner rather than later!

I've been dealing with a strange case of hives for the past almost 3 months  - they only occur at night which I've learned is when our anti-histimine blockers are weakest and vulneralbe. I do not believe it to be an allergy to my detergent or my sheets - maybe my husband but highly unlikely! My intuition tells me it's actually linked to my gut and my ability to deal with stress. There is so much that goes on in our bodies that honestly we really are so ungrateful for all our body does - all the processes it has to do to keep our food digested, moving and our bodies functioning  - seriously it's a miracle! I do think between the stress of a newborn, lack of sleep, full time mommy expectations and all that other stuff in my life (J_O_B), my sugar addiction (num num bring me some cake and I'm a happy girl) that I've just reached this capacity level! I think these hives are a way of my body telling me "Sharon, enough is enough!!!"

So, here I go! I'm back in the gym working out - sweating is good right?
I'm trying to remember to eat breakfast - 11 months ago I never would have dreamed I'd say this but man that little baby sure can throw you off!
I'm dipping my toe in the world of juicing and finding I like it. I do like veggies but honestly here are the straight facts - I get so sick of salads and I just am lazy to prepare them so let's juice them!!


My next mission is to find some time for me (talk about trying to land on the moon)! No really - time each day to clear my head and not make a grocery list, do a load of laundry, pay bills, feed the family and animals - you get the picture!! I'd love to learn to meditate but I'm not sure my brain can shut up long enough to be still and quiet! But that's my goal!

I've got some great mentors in my corner helping me and showing me the right path - encouraging me and being my cheerleaders!! Getting me to think and change the way my silly mind has always put me down and in the corner (Nobody puts Baby in the corner  - oops soorry Dirty Dancy fan over here!)  - thank you (you better know who you are!!)

So here's hoping in the next few weeks I start to see some changes.

I'd love to hear from you out there in Blogger land what your favorite juice recipes are? Or how you learned to meditate? Or how you wire your mouth shut at home so you don't eat all the cake, cookies and ice cream you can possibly shove into your mouth in one 30 second sitting!

Here's to our health!! You only get one life it's time to start living it!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Moving past the fear

I think fear is something we all have - whether you fear jumping out of an airplane, or you fear spiders, or for me I just fear failure in so many shapes and forms. Either way  - no matter what your fear is it can be emotionally, and physically draining as well as an overall hinderance in your life.

How many times do you just get stuck because you are afraid to move forward into that unknown? I know I am constantly stuck and in the end I either find a way around it or I push through. I've done that with most things in my life - fear of failing at a new role, fear of not being good with new software, fear of failing as a friend, mother, wife etc. However there is one area that as usual I never push through and that's this fear I have of myself and all the greatness that I know I can possess. Now, I by no means want to sound egotistical because if anyone reading this knows me that's the polar opposite of me. I typed up an email to a good friend of mine the other day and in it I was complaining about some things, feeling down and being hard on myself and she replied with this:

 "You have this ONE life and you should be your own best fan (I'm a fan of you too!). Give your self permission to LOVE who you are now and you will start to morph into the person you feel you ideally want to be. You have the right to LOVE yourself, to accomplish whatever you DESIRE. You have the right to live happy and healthy..and to cut out the people and things that inhibit any of that."

Gosh for some reason that just makes a ton of sense to me. I've written about this before but I treat my friends and family so well - I love to love people and give and give but I am not my own best friend. I need to start being that way. Forget if someone might be mad at me, or if because I'm wearing a size 14 right now someone might think I'm fat or "boy she hasn't lost the baby weight yet" WHO CARES!!!!

We are only given so many days on this earth and only the man above knows when it's our time, but I really do want to live my life! Live it for my beautiful children and be the role model that they deserve. Not everyone has to like me, or like what I do, I only need to answer to Him and myself in all reality. My life is not that bad, in fact its' GREAT and I want to start acting like that! So, I'm really going to try to push past my own silly fears and be the best friend that I deserve!