Yes....No.....Maybe!!

This journey that I'm on is all about the "Yes...No...Maybes" in my life!

Everyday we have decisions...decisions all around us! Should I get out of bed now - or in 15 minutes? Should I head to the gym, or stay home? Should I get dressed for work or stay in my p.j's (I work from home) Should I be kind to myself? Should I journal for the day? Should I cook dinner or would take out be easier? Should I ...Should I....Should I!! By the end of the day sometimes you have lost all your will and you don't even care anymore. Our lives are complicated, complex, glorious and ours to live! Each and every day should be cherished because honestly, I have no idea what tomorrow will hold, things could be drastically different, or I could go on asking all those "should" questions.

Either way, we have decisions. I've made some really strong decisions recently to put myself in the #1 seat in my life. Let me tell you there are days I want to take back this promise and go back to doing things the easy way (what I've been used to). But I know in my heart I simply can't! I'm really working at setting a better example for my children, and not that I want them to be selfish or lack empathy, actually quite the contrary. I simply want them and myself to go through life without feeling this nagging on my shoulders that I should be doing something else for somebody else.

I'll never change my ways - I'll always be a giver and I'll always think of other people because I think that's part of what makes me me. However, I need to find that balance and learn that it's okay to say no! It's not about being mean or selfish or anything like that either - rather it's simply about living a calmer, more relaxed life. I'm not suddenly turned into this person that only thinks of myself and forget the rest of the world. No it's not that, it's more that I'm allowing myself to take care of myself. I'll still cook, clean, send cards and tokens of my love to all those around me. I'll still be there for a friend in need, or a family relative. I'll still give my time and energy to others around me....it's just that I've carved out a niche for myself as well.

I now go to bed every night around 9:00  - I need time alone with a book to decompress from the day. My husband understands this and doesn't take it personally and it's wonderful!!! It's about doing these little things for ourselves that add up to a whole lot of feel good!

What will you do for yourself today?

Take care
S.